Sunday, 17 July 2011

Is it just me?

I don't normally double blog, but I've been meaning to do this one for a while. One of my favourite bloggers recently did a post on 'pet peeves' and I instantly knew I wanted to do one too...because firstly, who doesn't love a good moan? And secondly, it sounds kind of...fun? We also recently compiled 'Top 10 Annoyances' for the college magazine, so this fits right in.


Firstly, Facebookers. The fundamental flaw with the whole website is the people that use it. No, 12 year old, we don't want to know that two minutes ago you were sitting on the sofa, but are now sitting on the chair. Nobody is interested in the 'frape' packed with weird innuendo and we're pretty sure that Facebook isn't going to reply everytime you update with ''off to bed, goodnight Facebook xxxxxxx''.


People that walk around for days or even weeks with chipped nail varnish. Honestly, it makes me cringe. At least chip the tiny little black patch in the middle of your nail off...I'm pretty sure you don't want to walk around looking like you have some sort of nail disease. Equally, people that walk around with about 3 false, manicured nails remaining and the rest of their nails painted bright red or something - you look ridiculous, I'm sorry, you just do.


Having my back to people. I seriously can't even be followed up the stairs without cringing. I can't sleep unless I'm facing the door and I always attempt to sit at the back of a classroom so I don't have people behind me...even when I used to have to wear glasses for up-close vision I'd sit at the back and just be partially blind. Yes, that's how much of an issue it is.


People that bite metal cutlery when eating/people that scrape cutlery along plates/bowls. I have been known to tell my family off for doing this, especially my dad and brother. In fact, I've also been known to leave the room. I can put up with my dad's ridiculous eating noises unless he's doing either of these, and my brother's just a terrible eater. It's no wonder he needs braces if he chews every piece of metal he encounters...


People that EAT while in public toilets. Honestly, I have never understood this one. At high school, there was a crowd of girls that would spend their entire breaktimes and lunchtimes sitting on the toilet floor eating. Truly baffling. And the germs...goodnesss.

Tearing only the corner off a piece of paper - I had to do this to write my email address down for someone on Thursday but debated it for a few minutes first. I HATE messy paper. Equally, if I tear a piece of paper from my college notepad and it tears down the edge, it is the end of the world.

People that use coloured pens for essays. Black is acceptable, blue at a push, but nothing else please. I have a friend who handed in a piece of coursework that had been written in light green pen. Pens that make noises when they're being used are equally as irritating, as is the 'scratchy pencil' noise. Yuck. My life was made when I started in Y6 and was finally allowed to write in pen instead of pencil.

Wet hair - seriously freaks me out, as do people who chew their own hair. 

Students who ask you what you're studying and then go ''oh...'' because you're not studying maths and your only science is a social one. You're not better than me because of your subject choices. And arguably, you're not studying a language, pretend person, so you are also inferior. Also, students that are studying 'less academic' subjects who make out like all of your subjects are insanely hard. It's a ridiculous cycle of being inferior and being superior and at the end of the day, we all study different things because we're different people. End.


People in supermarkets. I can guarantee that a trip to (our new, huge, ridiculously unmanned) Sainsbury's will end in complete fury at a) my mum and her ''we have to walk slowly so we see everything'' theory and b) the randomers that will just stop in front of you, leave their trolley in the middle of the aisle or happen to be in your way everytime you move. If I ever have a position of authority, there has to be a law on irritating shoppers. Honestly, just make a list. You end up buying the same things every week anyway.


Odd numbers. Everything has to be an even number - the amount of sweets in a packet, folders I take to college, piles on my desk...everything. Thankfully, my friend Zoe is also an odd number hater, so I'm not a freak alone.


I cannot wear socks. I just can't do it. Unless it's winter and my feet are cold in bed, in which case bed socks are perfectly acceptable. I've only worn one pair of socks recently and that was to walk around Auschwitz in the rain. People that wear knee high socks also make me cringe (just because it usually looks terrible and they usually wear them with tights and shorts, just no), as well as neon legwarmers and/or socks. In fact, neon clothing. It should be banned unless being used as reflective clothing at night. 


Finding objects in places they really don't belong in - my latest moment was finding a whole pencil in the bottom of a water cooler tray. How on earth did it even end up in there? The best I've ever seen was a pair of shoes tied to a power line in my village. Why? Just, why?


Finally, people that never make an effort. Seriously, even if it's just a simple text to confirm something unclear, do it. It's going to take up, what, less than a minute of your entire life? And presents, if you're going to buy me a £5 Boots set for Christmas because you ''don't know what else to get me'', donate the money to a charity. I'd much rather receive nothing than a gift that has no thought behind it. Eliza did this for me last Christmas at my request and donated money to a charity I'm interested in. See, effort, thinking, it's not that hard. Equally, people who do absolutely nothing when you're put into groups in classes. I'm finding the task hard too, but at least I'm contributing rubbish ideas rather than nothing. Oh, and people that say they ''can't be bothered'' doing things like getting dressed, climbing a set of stairs or finishing something they've already started. Stop being so lazy, go upstairs and get dressed and then just finish it. Grrr.


It probably shouldn't have felt quite as good as it did to write that post, right? ;P


Now, your turn. Leave me a comment if you agree with any of these :)


Besos ♥ 
Rachel

Saturday, 16 July 2011

The Balance

There's a lot on my mind at the moment. I guess it might have something to do with the fact that I've officially broken up for the summer. I like being on a schedule and college holidays generally mess that up completely, so I think it feels a little weird knowing I don't have anything to stick to for what feels like a long time.

One of the biggest things on my mind is something I thought I'd forgotten about and managed to get over by now. But then, suddenly I'm thinking about it again and I'm not so sure anymore. It's probably my own fault for ending up in a conversation in which I got myself into a position where I had to mention it. This one situation, combined with some 'news' that I found out a few days ago, makes for some interesting thinking. Basically, both myself and somebody that I really do not get along with have both been invited to the same party. In fact, there's a strong chance that person will secretly be stalking my blog... Anyway, part of me is totally fine with that - it's not my party and this person is friends with the person hosting it, it's their choice who they invite - but then another side of me is already nervous about the prospect of being in a confined space with said person. I suppose that while the events that have preceeded this predicament have been partially forgiven, they haven't been forgotten. In fact, I can remember them vividly. 

Maybe it's because I never really had an opportunity to discuss what happened and deal with it. I was in counselling at college at the time but it happened during the two days before the Christmas holidays and by the time my next appointment came I was too busy with revision and exam stress to put myself through bringing all of it back into my mind. So, it's currently somewhere inside my head just lurking and making rare appearances when I could really do with it staying put. 

And that is the point, how do I find the balance between accepting it and being completely fine with it. I mean, I've accepted that this situation has happened and that, unfortunately, we have mutual friends and our paths will occasionally cross. But, I'm not fine with that concept at all. In fact, I feel physically sick just thinking about it.

Maybe I'm being a bit dramatic, but there's no way I can accurately paint the picture for anyone to understand why. Hyperventilating on the kitchen floor while your parents call the police...feeling completely helpless when your tutor tells you ''it's not a college issue''...being driven to college by your dad because you're terrified of being on the same bus as certain people... Perhaps the worst part at the moment is knowing that I can't talk to anybody about it until after this party we've both been invited to, realistically. So in the meantime? I really don't know...

Besos ♥ 
Rachel

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Linguastars

First off, I'm really not well at the moment so I apologise in advance for the lack of sense in this post.

Soooo, Linguastars. What an insane two days. We arrived at something like 9:45 on Tuesday 12th and had an icebreaker session to get to know the group. Our first impressions of everybody else? Well, we all had to make animal noises at people and 'find someone of the same species'. I was a chicken...I can't make chicken noises. Awkward. We then got given a bunch of balloons and straws and had to try and make the tallest tower out of what we had. Ours was, well, rubbish... The majority of our building time looked like this >>>


After balloon building we separated into language groups and the Spanish group went and sat in a computer room for about half an hour attempting to figure out what we were doing as our 'stand in teacher' didn't speak Spanish. We ended up doing some research on Universidad de Córdoba, which is apparently somewhere near Malaga. I'll warn you now, just for future reference, there is no information at all about catering at the university anywhere online. Guess what my research topic was... 


After that, we went to an AMAZING Linguistics taster session with a cool Bulgarian woman. We talked a bit about grammar and sentence structuring in English, and then we did some Vietnamese grammar. I seriously shouldn't have enjoyed learning Vietnamese grammar quite as much as I did, but it was SO cool. Chim nyo ku'ng thay chim to - the little bird also perceives the big bird. And then we talked about Latin alphabets vs. Cyrillic alphabets and Chinese alphabets. 


After lunch we had a terrible World Cinema taster session with a guy who just read out a research essay for an hour about western films. It was basically media theory but he got several bits wrong. From there, we went to our second Spanish session where the teacher, María, had us ringing her friend in Spain and asking him questions in Spanish. She started the lesson by talking about how she wanted to break down the fear barrier that language students have so she decided the best way to do that would be to make us ring her friend. As you do. It was a really odd experience but lots of people said afterwards that it did give them confidence, and it definitely did for me. 


In the evening, we did 'University Challenge' in random teams. The best round was the playdoh/pictionary round where we'd be given random things to model and the rest of the team had to guess. I think my most random object was 'piano'. We also had to make a team mascot out of sweets... meet Nemo. 


Wednesday began with presentation preparation in Spanish. We decided ours was going to be 'Cita a Ciegas' (Blind Date) where a uni student had three potential flatmates to choose from a lineup. After Spanish we had Russian (:D) where we learnt some of the Russian alphabet and were taught some basic words and phrases. The aim of the lesson was to demonstrate that learning a foreign alphabet, like that of Russian, doesn't have to be 'scary' or 'too hard'. By the end of the session, I was able to remember a fair amount of the letters.


We then had a UCAS workshop which was, well, dull, and then another Spanish session to finalise our presentation preparation and rehearse. My group ended the day with Interpreting, which was also quite a cool experience. We had to take it in turns to try out the different types of interpreting (English to English) including going into the booths and using the headsets or having to remember the entire speech and recite as much of it as possible. 


The day ended with presentations and certificate-giving. Our presentation definitely got the best audience reaction...if only because Adam (one of the student helpers) was interpreting for everybody and couldn't speak any Spanish. I was the contestant that ''hated everything and only liked animals and fish''. It's interesting having to shout ''odio el helado'' and throw a fake ice cream across a room in front of complete strangers when you're losing your voice (if anybody reading heard me today, you may now understand why I could barely speak...) The two other girls in the picture are Carolina (in blue) - the shy one, and Becky - the insane one. Becky was one of my actual flatmates for the night we spent in Charles Morris halls and Carolina, I believe, was part Portuguese/had been brought up speaking Portuguese. 


Overall, the two days were absolutely exhausting, but amazing at the same time. It was SO, so good to be around people with a passion an obsession for languages. There was one random guy who sat with us for lunch on Wednesday who asked if he could look at my apple juice bottle because it had Norwegian on the label. Yes! That is absolutely the sort of random thing I would do too. 


Today was the second Induction Day at college and I was in English Language then on the Amnesty stand at the Enrichment Fair. More on that when I'm less ill.


Besos ♥ 
Rachel

Monday, 11 July 2011

12

Today was officially my last day of Y12. Tomorrow is technically the last day, but I'm at Linguastars (more on that later). 

Firstly, what a weird day. SLT decided to cancel all morning lessons for CoPE people who still hadn't managed to finish what is possibly the easiest qualification the college has ever offered. So, it just so happened that I was supposed to be in Psychology first...which ended up being the room I was also supposed to be in to register with my form (which was handy, because they only announced it in the common room, apparently). I sat in there for about half an hour and then got told to go to the LRC where we all got very patronised by SLT. Because we'd all finished our CoPE on time and been 'good little chickens' (yes, I know, shut up Leon...) we were given the filler task of 'writing a letter to say how good college is'' to go in the prospectus. Most people didn't bother, I only did because I'm in SOS and part of the letter had to be about giving advice (which is what SOS basically are there to do). Plus, it's not like I had anything AT ALL to do with my day as all of my lessons were in the morning. Grrrrrrr.

Once we'd been freed from the LRC, Fern and I ran around trying to find all of my teachers so I could give them thank you cards and then we spent quite a while sitting outside B block talking with Sarah. We also had quite a lengthy rant to Suzanne (Head of Psychology) who seemed more than happy to rant back, haha. It was obvious from the beginning of the day that teachers weren't very impressed at the situation either. We then actually went in B block and I gave Nigel his cat mug, where I was also cornered by Lindsay wanting me to fill in a Poland feedback sheet, so me, Fern and eventually Eliza went and sat in Nigel's room while I attempted to fill it out seriously and Fern kept going ''I heart Poland'' in a weird accent. I think the heat combined with the weird morning sent her slightly insane...

There were some other things that occurred, but a) I'm aware this is all rather dull if you weren't involved in NC's latest surprise CoPE day, and b) I'm not entirely sure I want to share them on here (don't worry, nothing bad, I'm just strange).


It amused me that I started and ended Y12 in the same way - in CoPE. In that way, it's like I've come full circle and am back where I started. Yet, as a conversation I had earlier today pointed out to me, I absolutely haven't. College has changed me (a lot), and while I'm still deciding if that's a good thing, there are many things I'm thankful for about the college year (and also plenty that I'm SO not thankful for...):


New people: Keyana, Katie (even though I technically knew them both before, we never spoke), Adam (Amnesty), Kerry, Eleanor, Poppy (My CT!), Sophie, Jess, Jess, Jade, Bethan, Stevan, Emily, Becky (Team Sheepish!), James (Spanish), Chloe, Talor, Chelsea (English). The list could go on. I've met so many truly lovely people who might not realise quite how much I've appreciated getting to know them. There are some on there (e.g. Chelsea) who I don't even speak to much, but who are just genuinely lovely people who always, without fail, cheer me up when I do speak to them. 


New experiences: Amnesty International group (obviously!), Rob's Mediocre Choir, Working Title, SOS, CIN/RND, Poland, languages study day, etc etc. The one I owe the most credit to here, really, is choir. I only went because Aiden was, and then I met Poppy who is just the happiest, most fun person I have ever met (PS: she's on World Challenge in India right now and I've been itching to share this link with you all). More than just making new friends, though, something about choir helped me to somehow find the confidence that I just completely lost when I started college. But if you've been reading for a while you might already know my thoughts on choir. If anybody remembers that afternoon after I'd spent all morning sitting in an office with Tim and my dad crying, you might also remember that I had a choir performance all afternoon. I wouldn't have got through that day without choir. 


New outlook: Basically, my general outlook on college life at the moment is ''turn negativity into productivity''. I wrote about it in that stupid letter I had to do because for me, it does seem to work. I wish I'd spent less time worrying and stressing at the beginning of the year and just done something about it instead, but seen as I can't I owe it to myself to try and keep it up for Y13.


Tomorrow morning, I go off to a residential at the University of Leeds. Thankfully, it's only one night. I'm not a fan of uni accomodation after Brunel (it was basically a prison, made worse by the fact that my keys didn't work for either of the doors they were supposed to be for), but it doesn't look too bad for us. The residential is basically two days of Spanish (for me and James) and French (for Sophie) - we've nicknamed it 'language camp'. 


So, while I may be ending Y12 in exactly the same way as it started, I'm also ending it doing the thing I enjoy the most. Not too bad :)


Besos ♥ 
Rachel

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Poland Diary - Some Photographs...


About 1/3 of these photos were taken by other members of the group and do not belong to me (mainly the ones with me in or group pics).

I have no idea if it can be made larger. I'm going to Twitpic some photos later so I'll link up to them on here.

Poland Diary - Status Updates & Tweets

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Just sitting in a random corner at Liverpool Airport.

Found the paprika crisps from Croatia in a random Polish shop :)

Sitting in Krakow"s Old Town talking about slingshots and the Pope.

was with Jess Worrall and 2 others at Hotel Alexander.

Farewell meal with Jess, Jess, Jade, Becky and Emily. Love our little boat racing, Coffee Heaven loving group :)

All packed and ready to go home :(

Twitter

Just sitting in a random corner at Liverpool Airport with the Jess, Jess, Jade, Sarah, Pati, Beth + Talor #poland

Just leaving Krakow Airport. Glorious weather.

Having a meal in a cute little traditional Polish restaurant.

Absorbing Krakow's main square with Stevan and Jade. So beautiful.

Had cherry hot chocolate at the Wedel Chocolate Lounge. Now en route to Auschwitz.

Once again just chilling in the Old Square with Jess, Jess, Jade, Bethan, Stevan, Emily + Becky :)

Got a place on Linguastars, in a beautiful city, been making jewellery. Not a bad day.

Terrible at this hotel business. Can't even open a door.

Just watched Bethan unclog a sink with a plastic bag and a hairpin. Actually disgusting.

#SpecialFF @jessicalouisead - currently roaming the corridors of Hotel Alexander wearing a blanket

Breakfast with Jade, @jessicalouisead and Jess W.

At Wawel Castle. It's not raining. Hurrah!

Quick blog from here in Kraków

I think the man I just talked about in my blog post had something going on with the reception lady. Oooooh...

The man is somebody's driver. He just gave the rest of his ice lolly to reception lady. Can you tell I'm bored?

At the Rocking Horse restaurant.

Phone is dying. Should probs turn it off. Group competition later. Too tired.

I also don't want to go home. My Krakow friends are actually awesome and we're so similar

Saying goodbye to Hotel Alexander. Must not cry today but already emotional. Meh.

Tour guide walks in and says hello. My response? Hiiiii. Why am I so weird?

Running Scared is playing on Polish radio. Day = made.

Yeah it's cool easyJet, just open my suitcase and send it to the carousel with stuff hanging out...

Poland Diary - Sunday 3rd July, 2:48pm, Plane to Liverpool

After giving them their gifts I went upstairs and packed. I didn’t really understand why Jade and the others went back so early to pack because it only took me about 10-15 minutes…not two hours. To be honest, I do think it was a bit of an excuse from some people (alright, someone) but I guess it doesn’t matter now anyway. I enjoyed my evening with Jess enough to not care. I listened to my iPod for a while before bed to try and wind down a bit before trying to sleep. It was kind of good to know where everything was. I’m pretty sure I haven’t left anything. The only thing I couldn’t find was a travel adapter and Sarah and Steph found it this morning once I’d locked my suitcase. At least I won’t get shouted at for losing it now.

I was first down to breakfast again this morning (well, excluding Nigel who has never actually had breakfast with the rest of us at all) and I think I’ve really appreciated that in the past two days - being in a big group 24/7 really wound me up in Croatia and it was no different in Poland. Plus it was nice to get the watermelon before it started to dry out (ha, how sad…) Sarah and Steph came down after about five minutes and it was nice to eat just as roomies for the last breakfast. They both introduced themselves to Nutella and Sarah decided she’ll be stopping at the shop on the way home to buy some. Honestly… When we were upstairs we took some pictures together too. Steph is really lovely, and it really hasn’t mattered that we didn’t know each other. Even though I experienced it in Croatia last year, it still surprised me how I could get along so well with people I didn’t know. I’ve enjoyed the company of people I didn’t know more than that of my actual friends, but to be honest that wasn’t a great surprise considering I wasn't around them as much for most of the trip.

Sidenote: the teachers all just turned round to stare at me. Awkward…

Anyway, we all finished packing our things we’d needed overnight then went downstairs and handed in our key for the last time (sob sob). I won’t be sad to leave our broken shower and duvets that unravel themselves… We pretty much took over the whole of the reception with all our suitcases and hand luggage as it was just everywhere.

While I was sitting downstairs waiting for Steph to go up and finish packing (I eventually left her and went up alone), Nigel came and sat with me and thanked me again and told me that it was a perfect gift. Aww. He then told me to keep in touch, saying “I have Facebook, you know.”

Anna, our tour guide, turned up, followed shortly by two mini buses - I sat with Jade again. Everybody was saying how they don’t want to go home and even though I’m on the plane it still doesn’t feel like I am. College is going to be awful in comparison. We camped out on the floor next to check-in for about half an hour. We checked in, went through security and then went into the departures lounge bit for gate 3. We sat there for a while and I wrote in here but it didn’t seem as long as it was. I sat on the floor to write because I had nothing to lean on sitting on the chair and got lots of ‘you’re odd’ looks from people. Haha. Stevan was obviously watching me write/reading what I was saying over my shoulder from the chair behind me. Weirdly, I wasn’t very bothered by it. Then, we were allowed to queue up for boarding even though people were still leaving the plane from the plane to Kraków. We all had to squash together in the queue to make sure we got through together. We got transported to the plane by a shuttle bus like when we arrived although it kept having to stop as the plane still wasn’t ready. We all debated which way we should run to get to sit together and when we eventually could get off everybody ran to the plane. We’re currently all (mainly) sat together at the front of the plane. I’m with Bethan and Stevan; Jade, Jess and Jess are behind.

I feel like I’ve really been myself again for these last few days. I’ve just been happy and have felt like people wanted to be around me rather than avoiding me like some people. I mentioned something like this earlier and Fiona sounded surprised that I don’t like some of my friends (sometimes), but like Jess said last night, it’s hard to do anything about a situation like that, which is just rubbish because it means you’re just unhappy. Plus, I think our random religion conversation has, for some reason, given me some renewed hope. But I do wish we could just stay in our little Poland bubble forever…